Wish Once, Twice, Or Just Plain Make It Happen

You say it like you don’t mean and you mean it like you won’t ever say it. Some days are just like that. Some days you hold the world in your hand and others you’re scrambling to pick up the pieces as if they were straws. They say love the one you’re with. What if you’re with no one? What if you can’t stand the one you’re with? Plus isn’t that plain old settling anyways? What if the one you want is out there and you just can’t reach them? Are you wishing on a star or simply just wishing your life away?

All these questions are rolling through my head as I debate sleep on this Friday night. I’d love to love the one I’m with but that means me right now and sometimes I can barely tolerate myself. To discard a lover is easy, to forget them is harder. To find a replacement is easy, to find one that matters is harder. To find the one you want is easy, to grab them and not let go is harder. Life is a series of steps and choices, its hard to know if you’re making the right one and often times you know too late.

So here’s what I’m going to do and  I’m going to suggest it to all of you as well. I’m going to ease up on myself because life isn’t easy and there’s no use beating myself up and making it any more difficult. If I want something, I should know by now wishful thinking will get me nowhere. Lastly, I’m going to take the chances that I get because I don’t know when another one may come along.

Hopefully that is some sort of guideline to some sort of organized thinking. If not, feel free to formulate your own game plan, because what good is it you don’t trust yourself? Good night, happy dreams and make your dreams come true, even if you have to create them because that’s what they are there for after all.