The Highs and Lows of My Weekend….

On the downside…….

1. WordPress or whoever it really is keeps sending my comments to spam or maybe it is spam and I just have wishful thinking that someone is reading this blog and cares to comment

2. I realized you cannot wear black when you have two cats and yes it took me five years to come this conclusion…..

3. I have the social life of a forty year old and it scares and excites me at the same time which in turn scares me all over again

On the upside of things…..

1. I love, love, love my new haircut

2. I just ate killer chinese food

3. My fridge is stocked with Diet Coke thanks to Mia Madre

and who could forget number 4….I’m still singing… Go Cubs Go, Go Cubs Go! and go they did! What a weekend!

Well, that was the synopsis of my life for the last 48 hours, more clips from the underworld to follow!!

Looking for trouble….

 It’s kinda rainy and dreary here in Chicago today but it definitey does not reflect my mood. Yeah that’s right, I’m looking for trouble, the “good” kind. The three quotes sum up my mood. Enjoy, analyze, retreat….have at it guys….

” A drunk man’s words are a sober man’s thoughts”- anonymous

“The best way to behave is to misbehave”- Mae West

“The best thing to do with the best things in life is give them up”- Dorothy Day

Goodbye Means Nothing When You Wish For Hello

Raindrops are falling
But not on
my head
I tripped on
the crack
but you fell
instead
I wished for the day
when you would
be here
Unfortunately its taking
longer and longer
I fear
My heart is saying yes
My head is saying no
My legs want to run
My arms tell them don’t go
I was a prisoner
You were the one
Taking the risk
I never said goodbye
How much did I miss?
Seasons come
and seasons go
is my heart wrong?
to yearn for you so
Prayers seem weak
and wishes seem less
I worry to worry
its what I do best
A little bit of hope
Can go a long way
will I ever see you again?
will there ever be
that day?

Everyone Wants To Know How…..

According to my stumbling through the relationship blogs at Blog Catalog everyone wants to know “how” to date…I wasn’t aware that this activity came with instructions, but I’ll give it my best shot…

1. Make yourself presentable to the opposite sex (or the same sex, depends what you’re going after)

2. Find a suitable person you would like to date. By suitable I mean this person is not married and/or dating anyone.  By everyone I especially mean your friends,  roommates, cousins, siblings and parents. I’m sketchy on the third cousin bit, use your discretion. Depending on your interests you may also want to steer clear of a person with a criminal record, unless you’re into that or you’re rich enough to provide unlimited bail money.

Not two minutes later……

More like thirty seconds after I posted my last post, I find myself wanting to write something to reel readers in, but I just can’t seem to do that. I write what I know and I seem to know things that affect me. I can’t write about the iphone, or google, or Paris Hilton it’s just not my style so I write about my life which may bore people at times but I guarantee there is some value buried beneath  the surface. Take for example, I am always the one giving advice, CONSTANTLY. I don’t know what I did but for some reason I seem to be the authority on relationships. “Why is he not talking to me?” “Why does his mother not like me” “Is it too soon for this, for that” etc, etc, etc…

I’ve made a decision..

Yes, I have and here it is. If this blog becomes nothing more than a personal diary to me then that’s good enough.  I, like many others, do not have friends willing to listen relentlessly, day after day over my personal struggles and triumphs. Maybe you think they are cold or uncaring, no they are simply human or just unavailable. People come and go and have their own lives and the best thing we can do is let them go. If we hold them to close our ties are bound to break, but if we give them some room, we can have so much more. Sometimes we people do go and we don’t know if we can get them back.  Sometimes we can reel them back in and sometimes we can’t, and beating ourselves up over it is no way to go. Sometimes its just time to close a chapter in our lives and open a new one. That said I’m tired of trying to please people and the general public, it’s all me from now on cause thats what I need. Granted it still probably will be useful to people, I’m just not going to try so hard. So keep reading, maybe it will be more productive, I guess we’ll just have to wait and see!!

I’ve been wondering……

1. How important I am and if me, one person can make any amount of difference anywhere to anyone or anything

2. if so, how do I make that difference?

3. If my theory on chance versus fate is really true, things in my life have been beginning to rock that theory

4. What happens when you let go and trust your heart?

5. Is it ok to change your mind?

6. will my head explode from all this wondering???

Thank God for “Retail Therapy” and “Reaching” the bottom line

One of the “collection”

Yes, thats a shoe I’m fully aware and it does have a mate and I know where it’s at. Now if only all of us had mates and knew where they were at..sigh… Alright, veering from the point, I’ve addressed this before on the original Blush, I have a little bit of a problem. I can’t stop buying shoes and when times get tough the tough get going and I get going straight to DSW or Payless depending on my financial situation. I have discovered somewhat of a high in shopping or as I like to call it “Retail Therapy” and I know there are more of you addicts out there. So put down your credit cards, back away from the sale ads and take a little trip with me for a few minutes and explore this idea.

I’m a homewrecker, well maybe I just knock over chairs and drop glasses……

So I stole my friend’s boyfriend. Not really, I mean she was done with him and handed him off. Sort of like families with lots of children do with clothing, you know hand me downs. Yes, he was a “hand me down” boyfriend. Oh what a mistake that was. First of all, I wrecked that friendship. Although amazingly enough the world has surprised me and I was shocked when I logged onto facebook a couple of days after my birthday and found a message from her. No, it was not a vicious note at all, in fact it was a rather kind one wishing me a happy birthday, since then we’ve talked and have plans to have lunch or dinner, like good grown up girlfriends do and I feel sympathy for both of us.

Warming Up With Colbie Caillat and Cooling Down and Getting Back in the Game

 

 This beautiful song is how I would like to feel and I can’t help smiling…sigh….

I’m sitting here on a day where I have nothing to do and I’ve settled into a nice television groove. I’ve just watched Two and half men and it’s the episode where the mother is dating a man who’s daughter the son has dated and ended the relationship badly. When the man the mother is seeing leaves her the same way you can’t help but see the karmic observation. The despair and grief the woman is feeling is done in way that is is comedic but most of us have been in that place. As I sit here tonight I am feeling an entirely different sensation, one wrapped in guilt and a flush of hope and I wonder is it normal and is it alright?