Can I make a comeback?

I’ve done it once, I’ve done it a thousand times and I’ll probably do it a thousand more before my days are over. What the hell am I talking about? Sometimes I don’t even know. But I know I have a knack for leaving things unfinished, not facing people and attempting to pick up where I left off over and over again. Am I a slacker or just plain lost in the shuffle?

When “Like” Isn’t Enough

There are all sorts of complications when it comes to relationships. There are the easy ones, the trivial ones and worst of all the hard ones, even the deal breakers. Time, space, distance. He said, she said, regrets and simply not doing what you’re “supposed” to. It’s been said if there’s love you can work through all sorts of problems, but what about like? When is like not enough?

Here Comes the Bride and There I Go

I’m out of sorts. Out of my mind and out of patience. Everyone in the world needs to stop getting married. Right now. I received another wedding invitation in the mail (ok so it was the only one I got, but about the millionth I’ve had to hear about). Now, I know what you’re thinking and it’s something along these lines, “stop being a bitter 24 year old, realize you’re too young to get married and shut the hell up.” Did I get it right? Maybe, maybe not. All this marriage business is scaring me into being a grown up which I’m not so sure you’re supposed to be scared into as “enter willingly.” (that may have been a sarcastic joke as well, you be the judge). But all I’m saying is does everyone else need to slow down? Or do I need to speed up?

You In or Out?

“I wish they would only take me as I am” -Vincent Van Gogh

Timeless words. How many times have we wished for someone to take us as we are, even if it’s only a silent wish.  To be accepted as the person we know ourselves as. To be accepted for all our faults, weaknesses and to be cherished in still the same way. To find something in someone else that helps us accept ourselves and thus let us open up in a way we had never known. Yeah, I know. Sometimes I wonder what would happen if the world could see me as I really am.

Round and Round and In Between……

It seems I’ve got an ear ache and it just won’t go away. Now I could go to the doctor but for right now it seems better for me just to sit here and reflect on my life and other things. I live my life in a grey area even though I hate being in an in between state. In between jobs, in between careers, in between knowing what you want and don’t want. In between relationships, in between places, in between time and in between two worlds. What do you do when life pitches you a challenge? Obvious answer would be to hit a home run, but then why do I keep coming up foul?

Baby You’re the Best Part of My Day

All cheeziness aside for quoting song lyrics (again)I was on a poetry kick today and I discovered some interesting things.

1.Our true feelings show through our words even when trying to hide or protect them.

2.Poetry can validate our thoughts and feelings.

3.Nothing I say in a poem is logical.

That’s all I’ve got for now. See ya on the flip side!

Smitten Like a Rockstar

My friend said to me across the table at lunch today that I was smitten. I found this funny and laughed. Then I found it even more funny and laughed some more. After giggling like a school girl for a good five minutes I found some truth in her comment and began to panic. Could my exterior be melting? Could I have found myself in an unlikely position? Could this perma smile that is plastered across my face be related to a…..boy??? Could I? Could I? Could I?

Back to Basics

I’ve taken a hiatus. A really long hiatus. But now as my writer’s block passes the old urge to write is back. And in that I mean write, anything and everything. Let nothing be held back (well maybe somethings).  Though even as I sit here I face the constant struggle to put words to a page and to be consistent about it. In fact I do not have the words to say what I mean at exactly this moment. Also I do not have the words to describe what is in my heart at exactly this moment, but they will come. I am sure of that. So for now, just know that I have returned and will post more shortly.

How to Get Everything You Want this Holiday

I forever want everything I cannot have and why wouldn’t I? Of course you’re going to want your cake AND eat it too, because who just looks at cake? Cake aside I’m having a very hard time Christmas shopping. I’m finding tons and tons and tons of things I want and not a single thing for anyone else. I have this mindset where I believe someday I’ll be in the perfect relationship where my perfect

X’s and Oh My God’s

Inevitably it comes when you are doing nothing. Just when you think you are in the clear, sitting pretty waiting on a Sunday cocktail (or a Tuesday) it hits you. The ex factor. Now it may not even be that significant but its the little significance it has that counts.